长篇鬼故事 - 生病的童话

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我看到那女人喉咙上被割了一刀，像个坏掉的洋娃娃一样倒卧在血泊里，那个杀死他的男人握着刀朝我走来，我感到一阵晕眩，倒了下去，而在失去意识前我感到我被抱在一个宽厚的臂弯里，是那个朝我走来的家伙。

我昏倒在罗帅的怀里，在我以为原本应该被鲜血染红的围裙上，我没有感到任何粘湿的触感。

没有血的味道，没有尸体，没有那个叫朵朵的女人，没有人被杀。

一切都像是一场梦。

当我醒来时，我闻到一种熟悉的气味，我不需确认就知道这是罗帅的房间，因为我很清楚他被单的气味以及留在他枕头上头发的味道。

我坐起来，觉得头有点晕，我在床头摸到我的黑框眼镜，我戴上它，走出房门。

我走下楼梯，楼下没有轮椅，没有尸体，也没有血迹，那真的只是梦吗？我不敢肯定。我走到门帘后，掀开帘子，看见罗帅在店里，手中拿着小捞网。

“罗帅！”我出声轻唤。

他回过头，“青苗，你醒了？”他立刻走到我面前，“你突然就昏倒了，怎么回事？又发作了吗？”

我这才想起来，我其实一直有精神方面的毛病，虽然不严重，但需要药物控制，而我已经好久没碰过那些药丸了。

“抱歉……我没有按时吃药。”我说。

他摸了摸我的头发，“幸好我这儿还有一些你的药，你要现在吃吗？”

“嗯。”我点点头。

当他回来时，手上多了一包药跟一杯水。

我就着水把药丸吞了下去，他看着我喝下那杯水，然后接过杯子，吻住我湿润的嘴唇。我站在那里，感觉身上一点力气都没有。

“店里不能放着不管。”我说。

“现在是午休时间。”

午休时间……我昏迷了一上午？

然后我们便躺倒在门帘后的沙发上。

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我这病已经很久了，但罗帅没有丢下我不管，而是悉心地照顾我，让我待在他身边。

他对我太好了，好到让我感到有些愧疚，我没有什么东西能给他——除了那方面，我宁可希望他要的不是我，而是另外一个女孩，例如朵朵。后来朵朵真的和他在一起了，我便开始害怕寂寞，我害怕独自一人，所以就有了朝阳。

但我还是想要他，所以朵朵跟朝阳都得死。

很多时候我分不清什么是真实，什么是我所想象出来的，真实的人和事物总是与虚幻的那些混在一起，我知道我的病越来越严重，但我仍然尽可能不去服药，因为活在这种半梦半醒的世界里会让我比较安心。

我怕有一天我醒过来，会发现罗帅其实也是我所虚构出的人物。

小时候我常常会虚构出我的幻想朋友，想象我们一起玩得很快乐，起初我只是自欺欺人，但是时间久了，我就发现我真的能看见他们。

跟幻想朋友在一起的时光很快乐，当我在现实世界里受到了委屈，那么在幻想世界里他们便会安慰我，逗我开心，只有他们不会让我伤心，只有他们会接纳我。

至少那时我是这么相信的。

但我知道，如果他们有自己的意识，他们说不定也会讨厌我，从小到大我都知道我是个不讨人喜欢的讨厌鬼，长相平庸，学习也不算好，他们一定会丢下我，一定会的。

所以朝阳走了。

朝阳是跟着我最久的幻想朋友，但也离开我了，我不能接受，所以我在想象的世界里把他杀了，然后丢进了海里。

我想，我应该是讨厌我自己的。

“你不能老是自我厌恶，你要知道在这世上会有人喜欢你的，你有很多讨人喜欢的地方，所以我在这里——因为我喜欢你，你明白吗？”

“是啊，可是你不能向我证明你是真的存在啊，罗帅。”

自从我的幻想世界变得一片血腥后，我就开始乖乖地吃药，不过我也没打算太乖，因为我还是不能从那个世界中抽离，那个地方就像一个脏臭到极点却仍散发出亲切感的温床，随时等着张开双臂拥抱我，而我并不是那么抗拒。

药物也带来一些好处，自从我按时服药后，那些奇怪的幻觉就出现得比较少了，如今没有会飘的金字塔，没有会让我伤心的幻想朋友，只有罗帅在我身边——如果他也是我的幻想朋友的话，那么他应该不是会惹我哭的那一种，至少目前不会。

我这样想着……

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