长篇鬼故事 - 水仙少年

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从那天起，“杜尚”再也没有出现过，他放弃了总决选。那次拍摄的mV是纳西塞斯的成名曲，也是唯一的一曲。他们曾如流星般绚烂，也如流星般陨落，他们的名字早已在众人的呼吸中生了锈，当年狂热的粉丝大多忘了他们，早就改为追逐其他明星。

虽然电视台施加了不少压力，但因为实在缺少线索，警察也放弃了调查。

我也不用去电视台了，没人会在意我的去向，离开杜家兄弟，我只是渺小的尘埃。

我没上大学，而是留在家里的冰厂帮忙，我主动要求承担最辛苦的工作，看守冰库。父母为我的懂事而高兴，我比任何人都更早上班，收工也是最后一个离去。看守冰厂的第二个月，我提出加装一台太阳能蓄电系统，永远不用担心停电而导致冰激凌融化。虽然用了两万多块钱，但父亲很开心，赞我懂事，还说将来把所有生意交给我他也放心。

不会有人知道，在冰寒彻骨的冷库最深处，有一具全世界最完美的尸体藏匿于改造蓄电系统时加建的隔层里。

我终于实现了儿时的梦想，杜家兄弟中的一个会成为我的终身伴侣。

我没法不这么做，我爱他们，可他们只爱自己。虽然是这种另类的方式，但今生今世，杜文都只属于我了。他不会唠叨和埋怨，不会再对我发脾气，他是全世界脾气最好的先生，我可以看到他，也可以摸到他。虽然冷了点，但他毕竟不是蜡像，他有血有肉也有颗真正的心。

现在，他就端坐在角落里，随意地把手搭在膝盖上，嘴角好看地向上牵起。他是自愿跟我进冷库的，而且为了保持完美，直至呼吸停止心脏停跳都维持着这个微笑。

在他对面，有面足够照到他全身的镜子，这是我承诺过的。他失去了呼吸，却会成为这个寒冷世界里真正的纳西塞斯，他的右手里有一支仿真水仙，虽然没有芬芳，却永远不会凋零。

现在，我就坐在他身边，虽然穿着棉袄，但我还是要拢着手缩成一团，每次来见他我就只能是这副样子。

爱情真是自私，我居然要了他的命。我认真地回想了所有我们之前发生过的事，却找不到任何真爱的证据。虽然我对自己说我是爱的，可事实上，我所怀着的这种感情比爱情更深邃，比爱情更刻骨，这种感情应该叫做占有欲吧。我想占有杜文，杜文和杜尚都想永远占有完美的皮囊。当我明白这一点时，忽然觉得杜文脸上凝结的微笑也黯淡了几分。

我做错了，他也错了。我们全都错了。

永远让他待在这个冰冷的、阴暗的角落里，根本就是自欺欺人，世人早就忘了他们，除了我，不会有人记得他们当年的风光和无与伦比的容颜。既然我永远不会忘记，那把他放在这冰冷的人间地狱又是何必？

我决定做点什么来挽回这个无法弥补的错。

今晚，我的胃口比平时好很多，我需要力气，足够把杜文搬到水仙花田里的力气。我要把他跟杜尚葬在一起。做完这些我就该离开了，毕竟我还年轻，不该永远守在这个小城里，我想出去看看外面的世界。

以后的每年，水仙花开的季节我都会回来，在清香满园的水仙花田里，我会看到他们的影子。

PS：

水仙花的英文是Narcissus，自恋狂的英文是Narcissism。

纳西塞斯（Narcissus）是希腊神话中的美少年，天下第一美男子，他不爱任何人，在湖边欣赏自己的美丽倒影，枯坐至死，死后化作一株水仙，永生永世顾影自怜。

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