长篇鬼故事 - 你看不见我

被无视的

下了课，我暂时放下去校长室的事情，按照张明明说的，往那栋旧教学楼去了。工地上的喧哗声暂时停歇，工人都午休了，终于还给校园一片应有的宁静。

我一边走，一边想着昨天晚上一直萦绕在心里的怪异感觉，越想越不对劲。

当我走到教学楼底下，听见张明明叫我的那一瞬，我终于明白了那个感觉究竟怪异在哪里。

李欣的伤在左手虎口上，乍一看很像对面的人用刀刺过来时，正当防卫所致。可当我为她包扎时，却发现那伤口的深浅从右到左递减，如果刀是从对面刺过来，伤口的深浅不应该是从左到右递减么？李欣的伤口，很像是侦探剧里常见的案例，是自己刺自己造成的。

可李欣为什么要刺自己呢？为什么黄冉会追着她？之前那断头的老鼠，被威胁的故事，又到底是怎么回事？

如果事情不是我之前一直以为的那样，那是谁在后面搞鬼呢？

我对着张明明笑了笑，她身后的教学楼沉默着，被包裹在血色的气氛中。

张明明带着我一直走上了教学楼顶层。

这栋教学楼有七层，带个简易电梯。现在电梯间已经弃用了，电梯抽走后，只剩下个空洞洞的电梯井，隐藏在厚厚的门板背面。

现在我就跟张明明一起，站在门板前面。

她对着我笑，我仔细看着这个女孩，从未这样仔细地观察过她：“张明明，说吧。”

“李欣是装的。”她声音冷淡，是我不熟悉的语调。

“装什么？”

“一直以来，都是她在敲诈黄冉。那些她举报黄冉的事情，都是她自己做的，因为她实在没办法掩饰了，所以才找黄冉垫背。”

虽然已经大概猜到，可真的从她嘴里得到证实，我依旧觉得痛心无比：“李欣为什么这么做？”

“无聊呗。”张明明无所谓地耸耸肩，仿佛同学堕落到这一步，和她毫无关系，“她成绩好，大家都宠着她，也给她压力。她是你们眼中的优等生，什么都得做表率，她觉得累，就想做点离经叛道的事情。”

“比如？”

“敲诈，校园暴力！”张明明笑起来，“黄冉被她打过很多次，所以才一直穿高领的衣服。”

我背心一寒。我记得那天晚上，我盯着黄冉受伤的手臂说：为什么你要那么堕落？

“黄冉为什么不一告诉我？”

“你会听么，老师？”张明明冷冷地笑了一声，她来回地踱着步，貌似不屑一顾，“你们这些老师眼睛里只有李欣那种学生，除了她，你们还看得到谁，还会相信谁？黄冉就是傻。上次李欣敲诈她的时候，她说你会信她，她要来找你。李欣嘲笑了她很久，还找人打了她一顿。后来事情闹大了，外校那些小混混被抓了，李欣就想着先下手为强。”

“——那么，你曾经给我说的事情？”

“都是真的，但是老师要把人物调换一下。”

寒气无法抑制地顺着我的脊背爬上后脑，我忍不住捏紧了拳头。我不明白，那么明媚的笑容下怎么会有这样可怕的想法。

“你为什么帮她？”

“我不帮她，我就是下一个。而且老师，我这种中等生，就算拼死了努力得到奖学金，您也不见得记得我的名字。”

那天张明明冷淡的声音回响在我的耳朵里，我盯着她看，她的神色被隐藏在深深的阴影中，无法辨认。

“更别提我生病，我受伤一一”

“你也是自己弄伤自己的？”

“我只是想试试被你关注的滋味，可惜我始终只是个中等生

”她笑起来，“我这样的中等生都是这样，像黄冉那样的差生，怎么会相信你那些千篇一律的废话呢？”

我瞪大眼睛：“那些纸条，还有那个花盆，都是你做的？”

“纸条是我写的，花盆一一是那天李欣打黄冉的时候掉下去的。当时全班都看着，哦，还有人跟着一起玩呢。我们经常这么玩，打赌说要几分钟她会受不了求饶。”

全班都看着，还有人跟着玩。全班学生没有人告诉我真相，没有人帮助她。她唯一想要求助的人，说她堕落。

我的心脏像被一只手掌抓住，痛得几乎窒息。张明明嘿嘿的冷笑声如同纤细的钢丝钻进我的大脑，缠住我的神经。

“你们怎么这样？”

“怎么？老师，您不如多问问您自己究竟记得几个人。我们告诉了你，你会信么，会去查么？你会帮助她么？你会么？”

我口舌干燥，她心情甚好，玩起了头发：“我一直想着，如果我和李欣走得近一些，也许老师会注意我多一点儿。可惜到了最后，我也只是李欣的同桌而已。您知道么？最大的伤害不是辱骂，是漠视。”

我说不出话，她忽然脸色一变，使劲掰开身后的电梯门：“如果我衣衫不整死在这里，而很多人都看见老师你过来，你猜他们会说什么呢？”

她往后退了一步，我吓了一跳，赶紧上前要抓住她。就在那一瞬，张明明让开了，同时她伸出脚绊了我一下，我无法控制地往前摔去。

我以为我会就这么死了。

可是有人抓住了我。我听见自己肩膀脱臼的声音，抬起头，看见了趴在电梯口上，使劲抓着我的黄冉。

她那么用力，以至于满脸通红。张明明就躺在一边，黄冉第一次做了他们谣言中的事情，只是为了救我这个没能相信她的老师。

“为什么？”我问她。

“老师家的饭，好吃。”她困难地吐出一句奇怪的话。

我忽然感觉我的心脏，痛如刀绞。

我躺在医院的床上，望着天花板，上面有蜘蛛留下的白色痕迹，纠缠在一起，像无法扯断的网。

黄冉坐在一边，给我削着苹果。她桌子上那些被人写下的奚落语句不知道是否擦干净了，也不知道就算擦干净之后，她心里还会不会留下那些刺眼文字的影子？但是她没有说任何责怪我的话，甚至不提那天发生的事情。

我的手臂和腿上的伤还在发疼，如深入脑髓一般地痛苦着。而我的大脑里，却一直无法抑制地回想起张明明对着我咆哮的场景。

那天她用一种居高临下的态度质问着：你总是看不到我，你为什么看不到我？

那一刻我竟然无法回答她。因为我发现，不止是她，黄冉也好，李欣也好，我其实谁也没有真正看到过。

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